I don't speak for everyone when I say this — though many may agree — but I think I try to protect myself emotionally in a subconscious level by building walls around me.\u00a0 One of my greatest fears is not simply losing the people I love, but seeing those whom I love walk away from me without warning.\u00a0 That is enough to break a thousand people's hearts — not to mention crush mine to an irreversible state.<\/p>\n
I've heard somewhere that when the human body experiences some sort of trauma, the area that has been affected goes into a lapse of numbness in order to avoid the same unfortunate feeling again.\u00a0 Or something similar.\u00a0 I reckon it's exactly the same with emotions.\u00a0 Some of us can be stubborn enough to keep banging our heads against the wall knowing clearly how it's going to hurt us in the end.\u00a0 Those who have learned the hard way aren't quite so stupid.\u00a0 Rather, they turn towards the opposite end of the spectrum and avoid being put in a situation that may hurt them again.\u00a0 In other words, they shut down to the world — and if lucky, maybe open a tiny crack on the window to let an itty-bitty ray of light to come in.\u00a0 Enough to survive, I can imagine. \u00a0<\/p>\n
Like kings and queens in our own worlds, we put up walls around our kingdoms.\u00a0 We protect ourselves from evil forces or any battles that may be waged against us.\u00a0 We decide to keep within ourselves and not bother to look out on the other side.\u00a0 It's like oblivion to the outside world.\u00a0 And we'd rather miss out than have to go through so much pain and misery all over again — enough to kill an ox.\u00a0 The trauma is a recurring nightmare that plays in our heads and we end up doubting ourselves whether or not it's truly over.<\/p>\n
However, I dare say that those walls may also be unknowingly put up in a bid to find out who will bother to knock it down and come through to our side.\u00a0 It is perhaps a method that will filter out those whom haven't given up on us yet — regardless of the fact that we have fully put across that we've given up on ourselves; more so, them. \u00a0<\/p>\n
It is one of the special instances that we indulge ourselves in narcissistic and self-absorbed attitudes and completely wallow in self-pity.\u00a0 We put ourselves in darkness to discover who will shine the light on us and help us out.\u00a0 Unfortunately, many fail the test and continue to walk out on us without ever turning back.\u00a0 But there are the golden few who have done otherwise and persisted to knock down our walls amid bleeding hands.<\/p>\n
If you get one person to do that — to fight for you — then you have probably done something right.<\/p>\n
It may be hard to believe sometimes, but we are truly never alone.\u00a0 The thing is, we might not exactly get the attention and compassion of those people we are hoping would contribute them, but there will always be someone else who is willing to do so.\u00a0 We simply have to open our eyes and minds to them because we may choose those whom we want to love, but it's no longer within our control who decides to love us.<\/p>\n
So yes, you may put up that wall, but permit others to break it down.\u00a0 After all, we all need knights in shining armors right?\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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