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“Have you thought about it?” he anxiously asked.<\/span><\/p>\n

“Yes,” I answered slowly.<\/span><\/p>\n

I can hear him fidgeting from the other end of the phone. “And?”<\/span><\/p>\n

After a deep breath, I retorted, “I don't think I can do it. A relationship. Not with you, at least.”<\/span><\/p>\n

“Why not?” he said barely in a whisper.<\/span><\/p>\n

“Because you represent everything I stand against,” I quipped, trying to convince myself. “I cannot risk falling in love with you knowing that the chances of getting hurt far outweighs the chances that I won't.”<\/span><\/p>\n

At this point, I felt like banging my head against the brick wall of room. Voices in my head are ranting — liar, liar, liar!<\/span><\/p>\n

“But… but you never know until we try right?” <\/span><\/p>\n

“Come on, how many girls have you been with? And out of those, how many were you in a relationship with?” was my lame challenge. Could've at least done better than that. <\/span><\/p>\n

“Fine, you got me,” he admitted. “Those were all in the past though. Can't a guy make some changes in his life?”<\/span><\/p>\n

“Leopards rarely change their spots,” I echoed my friends' bolleries during the past few days of my confusion.<\/span><\/p>\n

“Fuck the leopards!” he exclaimed, his voice a mixture of resentment, anger and desperation. <\/span>
“Don't you get it? The main difference between those girls and you is that I'm falling in love with you.”<\/span><\/p>\n

I snorted. “Hah, yeah. And what would you know about that?”<\/span><\/p>\n

He sighed.<\/span><\/p>\n

“Not much. But all I know is that I've been with many girls before… but I want you to be the last.” <\/span><\/p>\n

But I wanted to be your first…<\/span>
<\/span>
… as you are mine.<\/span><\/p>\n

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