{"id":2777,"date":"2007-05-28T22:05:08","date_gmt":"2007-05-28T22:05:08","guid":{"rendered":""},"modified":"2007-05-28T22:05:31","modified_gmt":"2007-05-28T22:05:31","slug":"Plugging-the-Invisible-Gap","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/asiancemagazine.com\/?p=2777","title":{"rendered":"Plugging the Invisible Gap"},"content":{"rendered":"<div><font face=\"arial\">Have you ever gotten hunger pangs on the back of a particular craving? When you feel the need to satisfy the munchies monsters inside you &#8212; but you can&#39;t quite nail what you&#39;re yearning for? You know you want something yet you don&#39;t particularly know what. And you&#39;ll only find out what it is when you see it.<\/font><\/div>\n<div><font face=\"arial\">Utterly frustrating, isn&#39;t it?<\/font><\/div>\n<div><font face=\"arial\">I get that feeling at times &#8212; some more frequent than others. However, I&#39;m afraid I&#39;m no longer referring to food. Rather, something more profound and abstract. I feel the need to fill a void in me but I don&#39;t quite understand why the vacuity is there in the first place. I&#39;ve come to terms with the fact that achieving happiness is a far-fetched concept &#8212; possible, but not readily accessible. So instead, I&#39;ve set my target on satisfaction and contentment, which I&#39;d like to believe I&#39;ve been enjoying for the past few years. I have gone through hell and back over matters that I&#39;d rather forget &#8212; and because of this, I have welcomed the state of stability entering my life and thought of it as a reward for surviving. I had no idea how long it was here to stay, but I thank the heavens that it decided to come visit indefinitely. <\/font><\/div>\n<div><font face=\"arial\">I have nothing to complain about in my life. Sure, parts of it have much left to be desired but it&#39;s half-decent and painfully average. I can think up of at least a thousand reason from the top of my head as to why I should be grateful to be in my situation. However, I feel this void creeping up from inside of me &#8212; from the pits of my stomach straight to my restless psyche and hankering vision. And I also feel the need to fill it before it swallows me whole.<\/font><\/div>\n<div><font face=\"arial\">It absolutely destroys me not knowing how to address the issue. I don&#39;t even know where to begin looking. <\/font><\/div>\n<div><font face=\"arial\">In consulting, there&#39;s this term called &#8220;helicoptering.&#8221; It essentially means to zoom up to take a look at the bigger picture. When I scrutinize particular sectors of my life, everything seems to be in order or at least holding together for now. There&#39;s the job &#8212; check, there&#39;s the family &#8212; check, there&#39;s the financial situation &#8212; half a check (yet still passable), there&#39;s the social capacity &#8212; check&#8230; and the rest, check, check, check and more checks. Everything is seemingly in order. However, it is when I take a step back and see how everything fits in together that I find myself frowning and pursing my lips.<\/font><\/div>\n<div><font face=\"arial\">It doesn&#39;t quite flow. It doesn&#39;t quite fit together&#8230; like there&#39;s a missing piece or bolt somewhere. <\/font><\/div>\n<div><font face=\"arial\">Either the equation for contentment has changed and upped its ante or my delusions about being satisfied has finally caught up to me. Have I just been denying all this time that I was actually okay? Or was I turning a blind eye over in order to block it off my system and pray to God that I would eventually forget about it?<\/font><\/div>\n<div><font face=\"arial\">Why, all of a sudden, did a cloud pass over me and changed everything &#8212; without necessarily changing anything? How is that even possible? One day, I wake up and realized &#8220;Oh, there&#39;s something missing. What the fck is it?&#8221;<\/font><\/div>\n<div><font face=\"arial\">What the fck is it?!?!<\/font><\/div>\n<div><font face=\"arial\">If only it&#39;s as easy as going to 7-11 at 4 o&#39;clock in the morning\u00a0and roaming through the little aisles and finding exactly what I needed to satisfy my cravings&#8230; then life wouldn&#39;t be half bad now, would it?<\/font><\/div>\n<div><font face=\"Arial\"><\/font><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Have you ever gotten hunger pangs on the back of a particular craving? 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