Would you rather die enormous than live dormant?

I’m a firm believer a person that knows everything about everything is both an idiot and dangerous.

That’s why I believe people should be encouraged to ask questions no matter how many times the question has been thoroughly explored by others before. Sure, it get annoying when you hear the same questions over and over again. What’s more annoying than replying to a redundant question? To me, having to intervene when something awful happens that could have been prevented if someone asked some questions before acting on limited knowledge.

Now, here’s my personal shell, I am 29 years old, fair, tall and smooth, and I have had men tell me I am attractive. The thing I can’t understand is that why is that all the unattractive men are the ones chasing me? I usually attract men that are either black, married, overweight, or just fugly in general. We’re not talking being friendly, they try to get my phone number, they follow me, want to go out with me, etc. etc. etc.

After all my personal experience in dating scenario and relationship world, I conked myself to have to lay low for a while. Every person that comes into our life has a reason, we should not feel regret and think them as weapons to face in our new life journey. There may be some bad memories we choose to bury in silence. As we have this saying, “time will heal the wounds’.

Have met different types of men around the globe, that’s how I get to know man’s world. I felt enough and content, then I vowed myself to celibacy. I have never thought, all these failings can bring me to the positive world. Looking back those years, now I can smile and be at myself. Lately, certain events playing in my mind boggles me, may be because I’ve been dormant for awhile, facing level 30s which has resulted me in questioning lately if I am doing right or wrong? Am I perfectionist or masachoist?

Why can’t I have boys that are normal weight, white, and are attractive chase me? I would really love to have the handsome ones chase me at least once in a while, I just can’t understand why I am a magnet to men I don’t like? I’m not racist and I’m not shallow towards overweight or ugly men, I just don’t see why it’s the same damn thing over and over. I do not want a model, I just want someone like me, someone that I am attracted to.

It’s just the same damn thing over and over. If it’s not some black guy, it’s a fat guy, if it’s not a fat guy, it’s some hunk with some freaky face. And it just keeps repeating over and over. Wanting someone that matches my standards isn’t a high standard. I see guys always holding hands with beautiful women everyday. *shakes head*

10 thoughts on “Would you rather die enormous than live dormant?

  • Marisa Sung

    You look like a top model and most men are scared of that because of all of the attention that you get. I witness this scenario at functions all of the time and was just at a party last night where the same old thing happened. The beautiful young women got all of the attention but were hardly with the best men and the best men were looking at them but most of them had fugly dates/partners.

    I hope it helps to know that you are not the only one. I’d much rather look like you and go through life dealing with the dating stuff than to be fugly and have to stalk and con a nice guy into marrying me. Most of them cheat under those conditions anyway. Nothing is perfect. : )

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  • jaymie

    I agree with this!

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  • sophiaabellaPost author

    Apparently true. Albeit we know the answers are just in front of us, we still seek answers- normal behaviour to us human kind. Have been weighing lot of things deeply, so I still opt to be model type than to be fugly, at least we have lot of choices, and the answers just in our hands. What men missing is, they find us Diva but the truth behind those barbie dolls and air-brushed models, we are better than those conservative subtle type, we are more real to our partners, we say, we act and we think what’s on the table, not under- no hidden agenda. I not blame men, nor neither women- we tend to confuse ourselves between fantasy and reality. Only few who has both 🙂

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  • sophiaabellaPost author

    Yes, have seen a lot pretending to be somebody who they are not, sooner or later they’ll find out. I’d rather take it slowly but surely, than quick match, instant dating then end up cursing each other. I’ve dated both Western-Asian old rich farts-hot young studs, so I know the difference and happy to suck their knowledge, their cocks are just bonuses. I still believe, I can find cool guys with same age brachet, not manipulative or rushing things because of security and etc. That’s applicable to hookers, wankers, loners, desperate loner clubs, fuckbender and holiday shaggers. Nowadays, dating and marriage is all about security, and I have more post for that. I have to tackle one by one. Btw, I love sexy dorks, they’re very genuine.

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  • sophiaabellaPost author

    We beautiful singleton, we know the real score. The real man, the real sex and the real love. Believe me, those people trying to hurt us by saying ” Beauty Fades” what’s that supposed to mean? That we have to give chances to everyone who want us? Sorry we aren’t rotten fish you can buy at wet market. There are myriad of reasons why an individual seek relationship, partner and etc. Most of them have no career, wanting instant life, escaping reality and looking for someone to share and to blame, that’s not right. That’s why we see lots failed relationships, they put too much makeup. Sorry I fuck on our firstdate, if we wake up in the morning with a smile and we enjoy what we’re doing, then we let it flow. Dating now adays is overrated. It’s like e-shop, you can select and purchase on line. Not all we see good images, are the same we can get when it delivers. Whether on cyber world or real world, it’s all the same- it depends on what kind of person you’re meeting. They can’t ever impress me through their physical looks, spontaneousity, humor and etc- I have manually designed an alarm to detect a real-trying hard-fake testosterones. Of course, majority of us meet to mate the meat. Besides, men are scared of my fangs so they go with dumb bitches. Accepted being alone, sexless and loveless. I go for Mr Right not Mr Right now!

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  • Anonymous

    Pl. don’t change yourself all on a sudden. You said Looking back those years, now I can smile and be at myself, fair enough. Your words. me? I would really love to have the handsome ones chase me at least once in a while, don’t know whether u are queen Midas to Men. But U Don’t agree with your comment dard. I see guys always holding hands with beautiful women everyday. *shakes head*. I wud like yo put more comments on it later.

    Cheers !

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  • Anonymous

    For the same reason that all of the unattractive and fugly women chase and stalk the best guys. When you are beautiful you expect the best of them to chase you but they don’t have a minute bc they are being chased. How can they when they have scores of these aggressive women hounding them? Just like fugly mean have nothing to lose, the same goes for fugly women. That is why they do the chasing. Also, most men are intimidated by beautiful women and they just asssume that you are already taken and are that much more fearful of rejection. It is much easier for them to go with a fugly or average aggressive women. Trust me, I see it all the time! My most beautiful and accomplished friends did not end up with prizes and married later in life but always got tons of unwanted attention from men.

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  • Anonymous

    Liked the way it was put….. Thou had to google “masachoist” to understand its meaning …. Ur writings helping in knowing u better… Appreciate Ur thoughts and Feelings, have heard many other frns (gals) talk the same way and desire same …. But, I would disagree that U are not being Racist…. U can say U are being selective, but that’s hard to digest … and that’s my personal view (wish to be wrong), but would definitely say…. like the old story …. Every frog wants a princess to kiss and love her, the real person comes later…. So Good luck in your search….

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  • sophiaabellaPost author

    Laugh. I just want a man who look at me as a person worth to know, not scared to knock my door. I may look multi billion dollar and read men’s mind and body langauge- doesn’t mean I’m dangerous. I happen to have extras.

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  • Anonymous

    the more i read ur blog more it prooves tht thr r some beauties wd brain..n i think God made u at his free time.tht’s d reason f ur hotness n curvaciousness..ur each n every words are like u bold n beautifull:@rameshsahu

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